Deal with it

It is the weekend... That is all.

On It

Women are constantly paranoid about their periods. At least I am. I have never been  regular, so it has been hard to track. There's a few days of touch and go. Then usually when I'm the least prepared mentally and physically it strikes, like a tiger in the night. Nature's special 'blessing'.

Along with that great joy comes the acne breakouts and the water retention, and the weakened immune system, and the fatigue, and the mood swings... oh the mood swings. It's great, really. I recommend that all men try it at least once. Like the labor pain simulator that should be required for every sex ed class for every student male and female. You want to lower teen pregnancy and raise respect for women you get those teens strapped to a machine that makes you cramp so bad that you think your going to die, that'll help.

On top of the crazy hormone driven insanity I have three tests this week. Two are done, and poorly I might add, and one yet to go in the morning. I have little to no confidence in my ability to succeed. This is going to go really well.

I've had a lot of thoughts on my princess and the frog story. I've been doing a lot of shaping in my mind and I'm getting really excited about it. It always surprises me how the imaginative juices start flowing when I have several test to study for. I am the queen of inappropriate timing.

Wanning

I got about half way through the day before becoming unbelievably tired. I went to bed last night at, like, 10:30, so there's really no reason I should have crashed as bad as I did. I even went to sun rise yoga today. I should have been pumped. I ended up being just exhausted though. It was miserable.

I did get to talk to all the power affiliates at the power and light event at the engineering complex, though. That was nice. I even got to talk to Burns and McDonald, which is a major architectural engineering firm in the area. That could be a lot of fun working with them. They have a wide variety of projects, a lot like SmithGroup. It's not the national parks job, but it would probably be a good job. They don't have a Michigan office, though.

I suppose it's time to start really thinking about what I want to do with my life. I realized that I had no idea what I really want to do with my time. So, incidentally, I've been preparing to do damn near everything. Why else would I choose a degree that gives you at least a base understanding of all engineering fields? With an English minor no less. The only thing I'm not getting prepared with is a foreign language and that's only because I had to take circuits again.

I want to work as an engineer for the national parks system because it sounds like it would be fun. I'd get to see the country. I'd finally get to see the grand canon. And I'd get to leave a mark on the designs that go into the parks that I love. It is a great place to flex some environmentally conscious muscles. I dig that.

But what would I do? Like really do? I've been saying electrical design for so long that I almost believe that's what I want. But, I mean really? If I wanted to do lighting design SmithGroup would probably be the best place for me, they have one of the best lighting studios in the country. But I don't know if I want to do lighting.

I don't know what I want.

I want to have enough money that I don't have to know what I want and I can do anything. But that's not likely to happen.

I'm one best selling novel away from paying off my student loans and not having to feel obligated to follow through on engineering. It would be enough to feel validated.

I don't know what I want.

Working on it

I worked out this morning. I ran for a half hour and then did weights for another half hour. Needless to say I'm tired and sore, but not so much as I thought I would be. I went to the mentee donut outing on Sunday and ended up being one of the lost girls. None of my mentees showed up. It's a little depressing. I'm on the verge of setting out to track them. I already have the whole creepy stalker vibe, I might as well roll with it. I went to the book store and got a pile of books and a Clockwork Orange t-shirt. One of the books that I got was The Book of Knowledge. That should be helpful. I also got a magic book and a Star Trek book just to be well rounded.

Got my drawing done for design class. It wasn't as clean as I would like, but mine never are. I have terrible drafting technique. It is yet another one of the skills that everyone else seemed to bring in with them.

I didn't get either of the jobs that I interviewed for. I'm not terribly surprised. But I did get a good employee point at the stadium. So there's that.

Oh well.

New Post

I had two interviews yesterday. One for the sustainability office and one for a teaching assistant position. They both sound like fun. And neither of them are outside dealing with angry patrons for 16 hours at a time. This is important.

I also got assigned my list of mentees. I have five. Five freshmen girls to guide and interact with. This is going to be interesting. I actually did my homework, so I'm trying to set a good example.

This is all a little different. New positions, new people, new focus. It's terribly hard on my fragile constitution.

What the hell, let's try something new.

Rise and Shine

I finally got to go to sun rise yoga. It was awesome. Well it was good, and we can't expect more than that. I'm very tired now.

I also got to practice pipes this morning and afternoon. It felt good. I certainly don't have to do any ab workout. I need to actually work on my music so I can play something during my practices.

Still a bum. The only difference being I'm a bum that had classes today. Accoustics and Circuits. The circuits professor uses the same examples every semester. I hate having to take it again, especially since I was doing so well going into the final. I hate tests. Hate 'em.

Tired of school.

Sigh.

Frittering Time

I am a bum. I have been sitting doing next to nothing all day. I was one grocery stop away from not getting dressed at all. I feel pretty pathetic.

I did do some baking. 71 banana bread muffins. And I got to hang with my former roomie, which was nice. other then that I've been watching Firefly all day. I did however finish my yoga mat bag last night. It's nice, and now that the yoga class has actually started I can use it. I also spent part of yesterday playing with my large chest of make-up. I'm getting this smokey eye look down. Soon I may even go out in public made up. Finally, I vacuumed. I need to vacuum again.

I have some interviews this week, a school internship with the sustainability office, and a teaching assistant position. I'm excited about both. I'll probably get neither. But there's always the stadium. And that's not so bad.

Oh well.

Extend-a-Weekend

We got released from the game at 12:30am. It was rough. Even so there didn't seem to be any major catastrophes, except our team lost. But I can live with that. I packed about three pounds of snacks and they came in handy, especially with the first timers. It was so hot all day though. Even after it got dark it stayed hot. But I'm a light weight northerner so I have a bias.

The I spent what was left of Saturday after I woke up at noon, with my roommate and her family. They're nice, since they put up with me crashing their visit every time. It was a good day. It was still hot, though.

I'm getting the feeling that it will never stop being hot. I'm already over summer and ready for winter, not even fall, winter. Start dropping snow, I'm cool with it. I don't like 90 degree days for a solid four months. I'm just not built for that.

Today is vacuuming day, because it just is. Some things just have to be so, or they'll never get done. Today will also be laundry day, just for convenience. And since I have all of tomorrow off I'm not stressing about school work yet.

I think I'm going to marinate the last of the left over beef and do some kind of stir fry over rice. That sounds like a good idea. Then I can defrost my chicken. Yes...it's all coming together now.

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