Wanning

I got about half way through the day before becoming unbelievably tired. I went to bed last night at, like, 10:30, so there's really no reason I should have crashed as bad as I did. I even went to sun rise yoga today. I should have been pumped. I ended up being just exhausted though. It was miserable.

I did get to talk to all the power affiliates at the power and light event at the engineering complex, though. That was nice. I even got to talk to Burns and McDonald, which is a major architectural engineering firm in the area. That could be a lot of fun working with them. They have a wide variety of projects, a lot like SmithGroup. It's not the national parks job, but it would probably be a good job. They don't have a Michigan office, though.

I suppose it's time to start really thinking about what I want to do with my life. I realized that I had no idea what I really want to do with my time. So, incidentally, I've been preparing to do damn near everything. Why else would I choose a degree that gives you at least a base understanding of all engineering fields? With an English minor no less. The only thing I'm not getting prepared with is a foreign language and that's only because I had to take circuits again.

I want to work as an engineer for the national parks system because it sounds like it would be fun. I'd get to see the country. I'd finally get to see the grand canon. And I'd get to leave a mark on the designs that go into the parks that I love. It is a great place to flex some environmentally conscious muscles. I dig that.

But what would I do? Like really do? I've been saying electrical design for so long that I almost believe that's what I want. But, I mean really? If I wanted to do lighting design SmithGroup would probably be the best place for me, they have one of the best lighting studios in the country. But I don't know if I want to do lighting.

I don't know what I want.

I want to have enough money that I don't have to know what I want and I can do anything. But that's not likely to happen.

I'm one best selling novel away from paying off my student loans and not having to feel obligated to follow through on engineering. It would be enough to feel validated.

I don't know what I want.